Your mind is so naked. A book that yearns to be read...

Update finally

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 11:49:59 GMT

I've started another semester.

These next 5 1/2 months will be the most hellacious thus far. I was really suprised I passed my Respiratory test...and with such a high grade too. I hadn't expected anything above a D when I sat down in that class room, so when I got a B I was ecststic!

It feels like we're learning more in the 4 weeks we've had this semester than we learned the entire time in this program. It's kind of irksome in a way. There were a lot of things that we were expected to know but were never taught. This instructor was really shocked when we told her that. We always heard "don't worry about that you'll learn it in 235" well now we're in 235...and guess what? She thought we already knew and had learned it..

Figures huh?

For everything good there's something bad. That's the way life is though, can't really do much to get past that. Just have to roll with it.

Joey and I are still together, it's been 1 year and 5 months since he moved here. Doesn't seem that long...I still think back to when I first met him two July's ago, and it's boggling...then again, doesn't feel like I've known him 3.5 years either, it'll be 4 in December...seems surreal.

I really can't say much else right now. Three papers due tuesday. Oye. This weekend should be fun. /sarcasm.

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 01:39:34 GMT

Any skype users out there?

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 04:18:11 GMT

I just wanted to say happy birthday to my bestfriend!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is also Vampirella's birthday, so happy b-day!!!!!!

**day late, but I was stuck in clinical ALL day and half the night saturday :(**

I luff my lynnerz!

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 11:41:38 GMT

[06:33] Chandraleila: ::hopes your birthday present will be mailed in time -.-::
[06:33] Aurora Caster: ~giggles~
[06:33] Chandraleila: damn post office closing at 5
[06:33] Chandraleila: what's wrong with them!
[06:33] Aurora Caster: I have no clue
[06:33] Chandraleila: don't they know I'm in class til 8!
[06:33] Aurora Caster: Maybe you should tell them
[06:33] Chandraleila: I should write a letter!
[06:34] Aurora Caster: You should!
[06:34] Chandraleila: A very angry, grammatically flawless letter!
[06:34] Chandraleila: that they will promptly think is a threat
[06:34] Aurora Caster: Of course
[06:34] Chandraleila: and send the FBI to arrest me
[06:34] Aurora Caster: LOL
[06:34] Chandraleila: on second thought...
[06:34] Aurora Caster: maybe not
[06:34] Chandraleila: I'll just sulk......a lot!
[06:34] Aurora Caster: works for me
[06:34] Chandraleila: damn right!
[06:34] Chandraleila: They shall suffer the wrath of my sulking
[06:34] Chandraleila: ::nods::
[06:35] Chandraleila: That'll show them

[06:35] Aurora Caster: Btw.. what are you wearing?
[06:35] Chandraleila: ...uh
[06:35] Chandraleila: lyn
[06:36] Aurora Caster: LOL sick perverted freak
[06:36] Chandraleila: I didn't think you would be interested
[06:36] Aurora Caster: I'm being serious
[06:36] Chandraleila: I don't know what's better
[06:36] Chandraleila: your reaction
[06:36] Chandraleila: or Joey staring at me and going "What the fuck?!" because I started cackling
[06:36] Aurora Caster: LOL
[06:38] Aurora Caster: ~rolls eyes~

[06:48] Aurora Caster: I've even got green in my pants
[06:48] Aurora Caster: (just realized that part)
[06:48] Chandraleila: ....
[06:48] Chandraleila: ::opens her mouth::
[06:48] Chandraleila: ::closes it and doesn't go there
[06:49] Aurora Caster: I'm wearing myhalloween zombie sleepy pants
[06:49] Aurora Caster: Eww....nasty ass
[06:50] Chandraleila: you said it!
[06:50] Chandraleila: I couldn't help the thoughts that just instantly poofed there!

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 12:48:21 GMT

http://www.f-o-r-s.com/

After watching Good Morning America and seeing some of the footage of how often cop cars and stopped cars on the side of the road are still managing to get nailed I thought I'd post this for those interested.

Seeing some of the videos made me scared to ever have a flat tire or something. One of the videos was ironically funny. The cop pulls a woman over, and says "Come stand over here in the grass, if someone were to hit my car they'd hit you too and.....yeah..kinda like that" As he's talking a tractor trailer nails the back of the woman's car where she had been standing like 1 minute before. The car was completely destroyed and the woman was freaking out cause she'd been basically inches from death.

And here is why...if I worked for the DMV...no one would ever get a fucking license!

One of the real benefits of nursing...

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 12:42:29 GMT

Starting nurse salary: $18.00-$22.00/hr
Weekends Differential: $4.00/hr
Night shift Differential: $4.00/hr

Starting pay now becomes possible total of: $26.00-$29.00

$26.00/hr x 36hrs= $936/week
$29.00/hr x 36hrs= $1044/week

$936 x 2= $1872/pay period
$1044 x 2= $2088/pay period

$936 x 4= $3744/month
$1044 x 4= $4176/month

$3744 x 12= $44928/year
$4176 x 12= $50112/year

So.....by 23 I will be making close to $45,000 a year. That is if I stay in -this- state, which is one of the only 13 states that doesn't have a nursing shortage. If I end up back in say...Texas...which is #2 in the Nation for a nursing shortage, as a travel nurse....especially during strikes...lets see mom went to san francisco pre-strike, and in 7 days brought home almost $6000. States like Texas and California that have Unions, anything over an 8hr shift as far as the medical field is concerned, is time and a half.

BANK!

Oh...and dating someone with a BSEET who is planning to get a Masters in engineering....

::grin::

-----------------------------------

Today was HECTIC....omg...or yesterday rather...We had clinical...this semester is Pediatrics and mother baby. We were all scared as fuck to walk in there....

Apparently, I'm the only person that knows what a big fucking neon orange sign on the door that reads

"CAUTION!!!!!: DO NOT ENTER ROOM WITH GOWN, GLOVES, AND FASE MASK" means... >.<

None of the nurses bothered to go in with anything...me...the kid stares at me like "wtf..alien!" cause I'm the only person that wears it.

It's not that I was worried for myself, because the likely hood of me catching what the kid had is like slim to none, it's the fact..I had 1 patient...they had several.

Meh...

I've decided I love kids...when I get to leave after playing with them all day. I'm going to spoil Lyn's behbehs rotten if'n she ever has them. And then, at the end of the day, they're going home to mommy and aunt clipsey, is going to have a nice restful sleep....while mommy Lyn...curses me for making her kids heathens!

::BIG GRIN::

UGH!

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 21:12:01 GMT

I'm starting to get a little pissed off with my mental health instructor.

I resubmitted a paper on thursday of last week because there were a few corrections she wanted me to make that would make it better. Few being a bitch of a word, I happened to use the ONE nursing diagnosis that she can't stand because it's too "acquisitional", apparently "noncompliance" is a bad one to use...would have been helpful BEFORE writing the paper, but what the hell right?

So I choose to do Ineffective Coping, AND Denial, just in case one of those two, she doesn't like.

I resubmitted the paper to the drop box on thursday because she wasn't there. I get in the car and immediately call and leave her a message on her voicemail telling her that it was thursday, and I had just submitted the paper again.

Friday...I call and e-mail her.

Monday...I call her at 8am, and again at 4pm

Tuesday...don't call, she doesn't work

Wednesday (today)...e-mail her AGAIN, call

NOTHING.

Now why is this a big deal?

This paper is part of the "clinical" portion of my class, you either get a U or an S, unsuccessful or successful.

I passed the class portion with a high B, almost an A.

However, if I don't pass the clinical portion with an S, then I don't get to go on to next semester because my clinical didn't pass.

I'm honestly not sure if ONE paper out of....12 is going to keep me from going onto the next semester seeing as how everything else was an S, but I would really LIKE to fricken know.

I have 11 successful papers, and 1 that's in limbo. While I would like to hope 1 paper would not be the reason for me not to pass the class...I also wouldn't be suprised if 1 paper was what did it.

Is it too much to ask, that someone e-mail me or fucking call me back when I've left them that many messages? Especially since -I- had to rush my ass off to get the paper in by friday, and even went out of my way to turn it in a day early so I KNEW it would be there on time.

Semester ended on MONDAY, it's now wednesday, and I still have received no call, no e-mail, no nothing from her. Here I sit wondering if I'm going to have to wait for my fucking grade card to come in the mail in order for me to be able to KNOW whether or not that 1 paper, that I did take the time to redo even though it wasn't my fault (no one ever said "don't use noncompliance" guess I was just supposed to "know"), is a good paper, or not.

She is usually very good about getting you things back on time, like the very next day, but it's been almost a week, and I haven't heard shit.

It's really starting to tick me off. I realize people have things in their lives, but if the semester ended monday and all grades had to be posted and submitted by then...why can't she tell me what I made on my paper?

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 01:21:40 GMT

2 papers, 2 careplans, 2 journal entries, 1 project, 2 finals, and 3 days to do it.

HURRAH!

At least I won't get much of a chance to miss Joey while he's out of town for the weekend :-p.

Some creatures are less than human...and should there by have their presence removed from our specie

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 12:49:57 GMT

What possesses someone to look at a child, a child that does not even have the body, shape, or often even the face of an adult...and decide..."hot damn that's hot I want to fuck it!"?

I mean...I honestly....what makes them think something like that? How warped and disturbed do you have to be, to look at a 5 year old child and think that you "want" it in a sexually explicit way?

A 50 year old man was arrested in florida last week. For a child pornography website, that featured his adopted daughter that he adopted from Russia. The girl is now 11 years old, and has been the key figure for his porn site, for almost 6 years.

Thousands of videos, pictures, sound clips, of her, her and him, her and other men, etc. starting when she was 5 years old...and ending last week when he was finally caught and prosecuted.

I am honestly...horrified....and at the same time...seriously wondering HOW the fuck someone cna be so fucking twisted in their head that they would do something like that. Let alone the potential THOUSANDS of people that tuned in to watch.

Things like that...don't have a right to call themselves one of us...they shouldn't have a right to keep looking like we do at all, death is way too good for psychotic assholes that get their rocks off over 5 year old porn.

::is still alive::

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 08:23:20 GMT

That is all

You know what I get a kick out of?

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 13:09:30 GMT

Some of the local PETA members, who drive around in their nice smog polluting cars, with their leather enterior, while wearing their leather tennis shoes....standing on their wooden soap box....and preaching about how murder is murder, even killing animals.

THAT is what I get a kick out of.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 12:10:41 GMT

I need to get the hellraiser series...

Apparently there is a new one I've never seen, must have gone straight to video. Hellraiser...online! ::is serious about the theme, not the name::

I need all of them...I just....mmmm...

There is something about an evil asshole badguy that can say such disgusting, morbid, things in a way that for a second you go "hmm...that sound so beautiful...." before you realize what he's said and you go "OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Gotta love it >:-D

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 23:57:58 GMT

Disregard the last post...that's what happens when I get that "time"...and it is quickly replaced by the other hormonal feeling...ravenously in heat :p

So...like I said....tuesday will be my 21st birthday.

I get to spend all day in clinical. That night I'm coming back here to get QQ and then I'm not sure what we'll do for an hour before going to my house to have dinner with my parents.

It should be interesting...I'm looking forward to the "omg you guys are so fucking weird..." look that Joe's going to get on his face when my parents start to sing Happy Birthday.

Then the next day I get to go take quiz number 2 in my mental health nursing class...hopefully I'll do a lot better than I did on quiz 1...but since we had to go to a 9 hour hospice seminar then go to class and take a quiz...I'll keep my 50 and be proud :p

A LOT of shit going on....I've got a paper do the 21st or 1st...2 due dates, 1 syllabus...had to ask her. I've got another paper due the 3rd of novemebr. Another project the 28th of november. Another project the 6th of December. And some articles, reviews, and papers throughout...

gotta love school! </3 Anywho....yeah...that's it... OH and Lyn...Imma try to call you later ok? I love you. Hope everything's going ok right now.

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 09:05:56 GMT

It's the little things that eat at you the most.

A look at the inside, that no one else can share.

Great mood for me to enter into this week.

Tuesday I turn 21, supposed to be the happy birthday, the good one...yeah...

Tap dancing on eggshells.

Lovedrug: Down With The Healing

"I want to make you happy
But I’ve fallen, I’m sorry
I thought my wings could hold me up
with angels not demons
you don’t know how cool you are
to find the ways to love me without shame

I want my life to be red
with trees and like Autumn
I’d float away from evil and
Down towards the healing
so sad now we have become
the children trapped in the mazes
I’d give my soul to the one who has the courage
to find me and free me now

if I run I’ll just become like all the faking lights
so let the thunders take me under
and break my legs tonight"

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 00:13:24 GMT

::snickers::

And you just thought Asheville was a little southern town...well low and behold...it appears we have made an interesting little list...

According to one author..Asheville North Carolina, is one of the leading footholds of...satanism in America.

In fact...not only are we ONE of the footholds...but his entire 2 point article focusses only on Asheville, and the outskirts of North Carolina. Apparently we are THE foothold of satanism on the Entire East Coast...there is vague reference of any other "footholds" in the article.

http://educate-yourself.org/ps/satanismamericatoday14jul01.shtml

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 23:58:11 GMT

New layouts! w00t!

Have a seminar all day tomorrow followed by a mental health quiz I haven't studied for yet! ::getting ready to::

w00t!

What the...I'm moving..

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 22:37:28 GMT

"Mountain Earthquake
An earthquake rattles the mountains, fortunately leaving only minor damage behind.

The 3.7 magnitude earthquake caused a small rockslide on Highway 209 about a mile outside of Hot Springs in Madison County. The quake struck at 11:09 p.m. Wednesday night. It was centered in Eastern Tennessee just about 5 miles from Hot Springs. Officials say earthquakes here are common because we are on a fault line."

I'm sitting in QQ's apartment, and suddenly the WHOLE fucking building just JOLTED, and I'm looking around like "Wtf?"

It wasn't bad, it was just like, something heavy hitting the floor somewhere and causing a shake.

Apparently we had a minor earthquake, or the remnants of what happened in East TN.

Despite what this paper says, earthquakes WERE common here...a long ass time ago. We get little tremors from time to time, but nothing that actually was measurable like last night.

Great ole Asheville NC is on one of the largest fault lines in the US and Canada. That's why Mount Mitchell is the tallest mountain in the US until you get to the western coast. We havent' had anything measurable in a LONG ass time...Especially since it hit hot springs, that's fucking creepy. It's called hotsprings becuase of the magma that heats the water. Magma + earthquake = no.

If I wanted Earthquakes I'd live in california >.

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 08:40:22 GMT

If you're a fan of electronica, a fan of bands like Evanescence, or just like music and are willing to listen to anything once or twice to see if you like it. You should check out:

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 01:16:34 GMT

Is it just me or does http://mike.mm1swebcreations.com/lj/ljFriendsQuiz/

not really work for anyone else?

I've read Lyn and Christophers and theirs are varied. When I put mine in, all of my questions are about only 1 of the 6 people I've met/know irl, and some of the questions are stupid like "would alphavissera date alphavissera?" and "are kassu and kassu friends?"

Weird o.O

I'm a little peeved right now too, I can't get disk 2 of my Sims 2 disks to install. When it puts the prompt up on the screen, it'll say "please insert disk two" even though it's already in there, clicking on it 20 billion times still doesn't get it to register.

I can open the disk and look at the files and everything looks in order, so I don't know what the deal is >.<.

Classes started last monday. I have Professional Issues on monday nights, we're missing 7 classes this semester lol, monday being one of them. Tuesday & Saturday are clinical days, alternating days most of the times, they have it set up so we won't do a Tues and a Sat the same week, doesn't always work like that though. Wednesdays I have Psychiatric/Mental Health Nursing.

I'm taking two online courses too, Abnormal Psychology, and World Civ. I. Those two I may have to drop though. The nursing classes are different this semester, they've done what they call "integrated", which basically means, we go to class, clinical, and we have online assignments and papers and stuff. I don't think I'm going to have time to do the 5 tests in PI, the 5 papers in PI, the 5 Online events in PI, plus the 2 Tests in Psych, and the 3 quizes, if I add the 12 tests in Abnormal psych, and the 8 tests in World Civ.

So far so good, I suppose.

I said I don't like tragic, sad stories ::Stomps::

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 23:20:23 GMT

Sedna
Indeed, you are 75% erudite, 58% sensual, 79% martial, and 79% saturnine.

Deep in her underwater realm named Adliden, the place where the souls of the dead were taken to pay for their sins, this Inuit Goddess of the Ocean and all its creatures ruled with cruelty nurtured by bitterness. And who would blame her. Her story is in fact quite tragic.

Sedna was once a beautiful young woman whom men from far off villages would come to court. But she was a haughty maiden and would have nothing to do with them. That is, until the fateful day a handsome young hunter came into the village. He succeeded in convincing her that they should be married. The wedding took place after which Sedna was whisked away by her new husband. The beautiful young man was in fact a supernatural being, in this case a terrible bird-spirit.

When Sedna's father found out about this, he became filled with anger for the shame this brought upon his good name. He recovered Sedna using a small kayak, but the bird-spirit brought forth dark storm clouds causing massive waves to batter the kayak. But Sedna's father was a cowardly and selfish man. He reasoned that his daughter was the cause of this situation, and so he threw her into the tumultuous sea hoping that this sacrifice might placate the awful spirit. The storm ceased, followed by an unnatural calm.

Sedna's father made his way back to the village where he began to feel pretty good about his restored honour. That night he slept a deep and unnatural sleep. Sedna had become the Goddess of the Ocean and placed a spell upon her one time father. And what a dark vindictive Goddess she had become. Sedna caused the sea to wash away all traces of her father’s village and pull him down into her vast watery kingdom. Needless to say, their reunion was not a pleasant one.

The Fifteen Goddesses

These are the 15 categories of this test. If you score above average in …

…all or none of the four variables: Neit. … Erudite: Minerva. … Sensual: Aphrodite. … Martial: Artemis. … Saturnine: Persephone. … Erudite & Sensual: Isis. … Erudite & Martial: Sekhmet. … Erudite & Saturnine: Nemesis. … Sensual & Martial: Hera. … Sensual & Saturnine: Bast. … Martial & Saturnine: Ilamatecuhtli. … Erudite, Sensual & Martial: Maeve. … Erudite, Sensual & Saturnine: Freya. … Erudite, Martial & Saturnine: Sedna. … Sensual, Martial & Saturnine: Macha.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 46% on erudite

You scored higher than 15% on sensual

You scored higher than 95% on martial

You scored higher than 88% on saturnine

Link: The Mythological Goddess Test written by Nitsuki on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Stop being a fucking drama queen, you're a grown man.

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 00:48:30 GMT

Grow the fuck up and start acting like a man.

You were the one who broke up with her. YOU BROKE UP WITH HER.

You were the one who said you wanted to act like she never existed, and to stay out of her life.

You are ALSO the one spreading rumors about her and telling her ex-boyfriend about her sex life, which you know nothing about, because she wasn't fucking you and you weren't there now were you?

You threatened to kick his ass everyday, to kill him because he was a "pussy", now you've decided to go spread shit about her because you don't like her any more? When confronted you say "Well I'm not going to lie" NEWSFLASH He didn't ASK you about her sex life, you just boldly "I don't hate you...oh and --- did --- with some guy."

You call this fucking mature? You're how old? Because from the looks of it, I would say 12. Which really scares me, because you claim to be 3 years older than me.

Make up your fucking mind. Either she exists, or she doesn't. If she doesn't, then FUCKING DROP THIS PUSSY ASSED BULLSHIT.

We ALL know the only reason you're running your mouth is because you're mad she actually did what you wanted her to. You told her, you wanted her to get over you so you could be with your new girlfriend, you didn't want her to sit around and mope and pine over you. Well guess what, she didn't mope, and what? Now you got pissed that she didn't mope so you're going to make her life a living hell because you GOT what you WANTED?

Gah, grow the fuck up, and let this bullshit and drama end. Whatever sick pleasure you get out of trying to make her life hell, even though you're the one who dumped HER, is sad.

And running your mouth about her being a whore, coming from you, is really pathetic. She's had willing sex with a total number of how many people? 0.

How many people have you fucked? How many people has her ex before you fucked?

But she's the whore right? Typical comment from a typical man. You can fuck around and put your dick in multiple holes belonging to multiple genders, but she hasn't fucked anyone and you spread shit about her to her ex?

Seriously. Grow up. I don't want to hear any of this bullshit any more. I don't want you explainign your reasoning to me.

I DON'T CARE. And neither should you, you broke up with her, not the other way around. So shut the fuck up and let the drama stop. You can say that you're too "vindictive" to let it stop, but you were the one who started this bullshit.

Let it the fuck go and move the fuck on.

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 05:11:19 GMT

When are people going to start taking responsibility for their own actions and choices?!

If you buy an adult themed game for your children, you have NO right to complain about the fucking, adult themes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK

Rockstar Games (makers of the GTA series) are being sued twice now. One for a game hack that was hidden in the game code, allowing people who access it to have a real adult sex scene.

The second case, is the parents of two boys who decided to get a gun and shoot a third boy. When arrested they told the cops they wanted to "reinact their favorite game."

In the U.S you must be 16 or older to purchase a rated M game. Does that keep kids from getting it? No. Why? Because parents go out and buy their 10, 11, 12 year old children these games.

The same parents that are shocked, and appauled by the adult content in the game. The same parents that want to sue the company for it's bad product influence, rather than smack their kids and say "THIS IS A GAME! DON'T REALLY DO IT!"

Rather than taking the blame for not educating their children, it's the game industry's fault.

I'm sure it was the game industry that bought your child that game right? Just like it was the game industry that bought your fat son the hot dog?

Christ...people piss me the fuck off.

Start taking responsibility for your own actions.

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 02:24:57 GMT

I miss jinxy :(

Jinxy! where are you?!?!?!?

::goes to play with my lerpechaun on KoL named jinxy::

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 19:41:24 GMT

Looks like you have managed to get into Heaven!
CONGRADULATIONS!!! Let's hope there is a Heaven
to get into and all will be grand. Have fun!

Are you going to Heaven or Hell?
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Woo

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 07:28:48 GMT

For those Darkhaven, Casters, Dark Chat and LOTNers that are interested...

An old friend contacted me tonight and wants to get ahold of your screen names and what not. I didn't give them out because, hey, they're your screen names.

Dustykins21

yes that is Dustin/DEATH 's screen name, I was "who the fuck is this" too because of the...cutesy...nature of it.

Those interested, he wants to talk to you, those not interested...don't add him.